3 day refresh: Day 2

Day 2 can be summed up in 2 words.....Disappointing Disaster!

Mason woke up around 3:30am so I went in, picked him up & got him back to sleep. I really felt pretty good about that time. I was of course sleepy but I didn't feel hungry, weak, sick or have a headache. I felt like I would be able to tackle day 2.

Fast forward to my alarm at 6:15. Blake & I woke up and I felt awful! I was dizzy, nauseous, freezing cold but also sweating, and standing up took all the energy I had. I went in the bathroom & tried to start getting ready but just couldn't do it. I laid on the bathroom floor and prayed I would feel better but I just didn't. Blake brought me some peanut butter because we were thinking maybe I just didn't eat enough & my blood sugar was too low. It sadly didn't help. I messaged my coach and told her how I was feeling & said is this normal on the refresh? She said no, it isn't I'm worried about you!  I got myself ready & vowed that I would just add some more fruits and veggies each serving.

It took longer than normal to nurse, pump & get ready but I made it, barely. I ate strawberries and began to drink my shakeology but it wasn't helping.  Blake had me try a fiber one bar to see if it was my blood sugar but still didn't help. As a last resort I put an old mint in my mouth to try to see if I could raise my blood sugar & that was the last straw, it all came to a head &. I got very sick. Blake decided I wasn't going to school that day so he took Mason to the sitters and I made a pallet on the bathroom floor. It was obvious at this point it wasn't from the 3 day refresh but more from a stomach bug I must have picked up somewhere.

After my 3 hour nap on the bathroom floor I started to feel a little better. I wanted to keep trying it but I have the worst gag reflux & the thought of any food was making me sick. I've finally been able to keep some crackers & Gatorade down but that's all my stomach can handle for now.

I immediately had such disappointment in myself. While I know that I got sick & there was nothing I can do about it, I wanted so badly to succeed at this & instead I feel like I failed miserably. There have tears, frustration, disappointment, a little embarrassment to say I couldn't do it. But I know I have to take care of myself first. I have contemplated picking up tomorrow but once I have the stomach flu my stomach & gag reflux are not normal for about a week. So I am going to keep my last 2 days & try again another time.

Trying to find the positives in every situation, I'm taking this illness as a sign. My milk is the one thing giving Mason all of his vitamins and nutrients that he needs so rather than try to do another refresh or cleanse while I'm nursing I'm going to wait until I'm done. I know that I can still lose weight & get in great shape by following the nutrition & workout plans my programs provides while giving Mason as much of the good nutrients that he needs.

I am going to blog about my program and results I have each week because I feel like this keeps me accountable.

So my takeaways from 1 day of the refresh:
1. Stop eating out of habit or  boredom.
2. I'm going to continue drinking mother's milk tea 3x a day because I like it and it helped. I'm stopping the horrific lactation cookies though.
3. I'm vowing to be "sweet free" until our trip at thanksgiving.
4. Drink 1 gallon of water every day.

If you're wanting to try the refresh I do totally recommend it. I'm not going to recommend it to nursing moms though unless you increase your intake at each meal. Goal weight isn't as important as giving your baby enough of the nutrients your baby needs.